I've finally realize if I don't share my thoughts with people, and receive feedback I'll never be malleable enough to gain insight into the positive and negative aspects of my personality. I give to much the fuck about what I'm saying, and not how I'm saying it, so much has been excessively distorted, attempting to make myself like those around me when truthfully I can only be myself, (fucking run on sentences) all that I do is based around so little thought and never seeing the larger picture. Nothings ever been wrong with me sadly, I've been creating the entire problem all along, (wow it's nearly 5am in the fucking morning and my mom just got home, I hope she's not drunk...nope her friend is o.O). Anyway, simply put I give to much a fuck about shit, and I don't think shit in the right manner, I make up problems and excuses for myself to compensate for the lack of trust within, shit it's late, I need to go the fuck to sleep.